I won’t be of any help recommending a book if you aren’t yet on the deep and rough but ultimately honest face to face recognition stage where you fear pronouncing yourself in bold language , but if you let me shed some light on that mirror you are looking into , the image of yourself scared as if condemned not being able for ever to free your spirits of language , all I can tell you my friend is don’t die without a try , daring is the name of the game, language do change your life, just dare, say it , spit it out and be free no matter what