Amazing, i love how the MC wants to get his life together but is constantly being lured by other things, it perfectly describes how people want something but can never get it and keep pushing it away, maybe because he subconsciously believes he is not worthy of it, maybe just a series of wild misadventures .he keeps on trying, hustling and ruminating about the past, how good it was and wishing that it would go back the way it was,
both sad and describes our craving altho we want something, it doesn't mean we are ready to put everything on the line for it to happen.