I have never so grossly misunderstood a movie in all my life. I would like to stress that I had no prior knowledge of the film before watching it, just stumbled across it, really and so had no expectations at all.
The movie's visual's reminded me slightly of Stranger things TV show - a glow-y retro vibe. The TV show, The Pink Opaque kind of reminded me of the 90's TV shows that you cannot watch anymore because nostalgia makes you remember them as better than they actually were, like Charmed or 90210...
And so I completely missed the whole analogy this movie tries to make between the "wonderful, glow-y" TV show and trans identity. Instead, I am ashamed to say, I thought that the TV show was a sort of escapism from reality. I thought that when Maddy says she cannot distinguish real life from the TV show anymore it means that she is experiencing some mental breakdown. The fact that she later disappears for a few years and comes back seemingly completely detached from her past experiences, reaffirmed that this movie, in my view is dealing with a sort of schizophrenia that Maddy has and the main character sort of identifies within himself too, but cannot come to terms with it. So at the end when he cuts himself up and sees the TV glow, it was for me a sign that he has this longing for some other reality inside him, like a dormant mental illness he is not facing and which prevents him from embracing life and it is the reason why everything about him is so dull and subdued.
I later read an interview with the director and I was 100% off mark. The TV glow and the TV show which I perceived as an ominous, escapist fantasy together with its own mythology and everything is actually the trans identity the director wants his characters to embrace.
I am giving it 2 stars because the movie I thought it was was actually quite good.