Cat Watkins

I have mixed feelings about this show. I love the fact that there are people out their with a passion to care enough to help. I love to watch the catch up and see that they have recovered and they can get back to their normal lives. What I don't like is that it brings up alot of issues for me. My father was an alcoholic. It was his life. That's what he chose and for that I never got to know him for hwho he actually could have been. When I was younger there was no help or shows I could contact to try and get him help. It bothered me everyday that I couldn't do anything for him. Even though I never had him I wanted him back. I contacted anyone I could to try and do something about it. No one would hear me out because I was a child. No one would do anything to help me with this. They told me he was an adult and he would have to help himself. So I accepted it because I thought all hope was lost. Every way I turned I was just falling back into a circle. I told myself I couldn't do anything to save him and I admit I gave up. He died when I was 19. Everyday I think about how it could have been different if these type of resources and people where there when I needed them. So this show hits hard sometimes but in the end I'm grateful that it's there to help other people get the help they need. In my situation alcohol wasn't the disease. The mind was, that led him to pick up that first drink. That's where in began and that's where it ended.