First ! I love what they have done with teen mom the family reunion .i want to give a shout out to Amber let me say first how much i love you from the beginning til now and to also say dont beat yourself up pray and talk to GOD about youself and your kids. Take it one day at a time stay present in your kids life and do what you can when you can...You are a great person life is not easy take it day by day spend time with GOD and yourself privately and confide in him .