The hunger games:
The ballad of song birds and snakes reflection: (excuse the grammar plsss)
Warning this is a self reflection on this book/ movie and character. I couldn’t sleep so I started self reflecting.
I know I keep talking about snow but this character feels relatable in a lot of ways in this moment of time I’m in. I feel like since he was a kid he had seen and gone through a lot of ugly and sad things. He didn’t have any guidance. Through out the book he is scared and pretending not to be. He is in fight or flight mode. Definitely most likely has some ptsd. If you don’t love or trust in good you won’t get hurt. But in that you lose apart of yourself and your humanity. He lost hope in trust and love and became greedy and his heart hardened. I think that’s something I’m struggling with myself. To love especially with an open heart is a strength and not a weakness. The world is very scary and it can change a person. I’m trying to find a balance in that, like being open with my heart and loving and trusting people but also protecting my self. Right now it feels very difficult to do that. Especially the people I interact with on a day to day. It’s very hard to carry myself with compassion lately and I feel out of touch and scared of people. Also just with everything that is going on in the world you can’t trust the government. That’s something snow realizes to with the game maker and president in this book.
I think I definitely have lost hope in people that’s why I find it draining going to work. I don’t like being around people. They stress me out.
I understand no one is perfect neither am I by any means I think that’s why forgiveness is important but even that’s hard to do. Love and forgiveness is the ultimate strength.
But humans are very conditional lovers
Including me
I think that’s why religion and the idea humans have created of what is gods love and law are flawed
We don’t truly understand how to unconditionally love ultimately because of our egos.