I was greatly disturbed, because, although I’ve never raped (I once begged a girl for sex and it felt so wrong I never did it again as an example of my ethics), never killed anybody, and don’t stalk; even though I give alms to strangers I let into my home (I don’t do it for anything but their well being)… I noticed that he was quiet, not very convincing, and wasn’t boisterous. He was like a weak man at a party, which Epictetus proscribed as like gold. I realized the black kid was a big liar, the way he moved close up and intimately, playing on pity and testing trust and would steal, which deepened my intense disturbance of how much I’m not outgoing. I think the actor is a real loner, who grew up used to getting rejected… but I couldn’t shake the disturbance, until I realized… that kind of silence must mean, “experienced death,” or “around death,” and that my similarities were caused by early deaths in my family, and the 8 people I lost during Covid. Still disturbed, it’s graphic how normal he is, you’d abandon lonely people knowing what he hides. But you’d never catch him.