It's hard to describe the feelings. A friend gave it to me saying read this if you can. I am really glad I went into it 'blind' without reading the reviews and would suggest it.
Once I put it down for a week afraid to continue. But I knew I would.
Maybe 'devastating' is the right word.
I am glad I have read it. I will reccomend it to a select few of my reading friends.
Thank you to Hanya Yanagihara for writing it.