Try and be more grateful to the "white people" you're referring to and making insulting /racist jokes about. Let me (brown / sexually ambiguous) tell you something, if you were here, with people of your own color, I'm not even sure if you'd be this successful. With the same hard work and everything it's not easy here. But they have accepted you for you and given you a chance, yes you struggled and faced some criticism, but I mean who didn't. We've seen you grow, we know you will even more, please take the right direction soon. I really really hope the show goes well and wish you all the success. Always a fan :)