My personal experience with Valorant started in it's open beta, and I played the game to give me a small amount of satisfaction in the empty void that is my life. I used to live in a small flat where I sold and produced fake Nike trainers to scam small children. After acquiring the game on my 2010 PC computer, I have felt even sadder and worse about myself. I once encountered a player who called me racial slurs and said my computer was bad. I have recently started contemplating suicide as my flat mate is behind on rent payments. To help with this, I have started playing Valorant more, it is a slow and steady addiction, and I have ended up spending 1,000 pounds on in game currencies to buy weapon skins. Every time I do it I get a euphoric rush and love the different skins. I think I need help,