Soumili Biswas

I had to research some details after finishing this book. Well, the book is what people describe as depressing; yes, it is, as it follows the life story of Yozo, who felt no emotions and detached himself from others mentally. The book didn't make me cry, as it maintains a very numb tone from my perspective. It doesn't make you feel enraged, happy, or sad, yet while reading, you will feel pity for the main character. At the same time, I related to his thoughts; even though his actions weren't right, they were kind of shameful and added more to his suffering.One of the main reasons he became the way he was was because his family, being a younger sibling, I believe can do that with a father who doesn't think his children can have a perspective or desire of their own. Also, after reading this, I had a question: why would one read it? Because it has a very unreliable narrative, and that's what the author meant when he wrote it in a notebook-style way. We don't write in diaries or journals to give someone any lesson from our experiences; rather, we just write down our thoughts. And the book delivered that it doesn't say don't become like him doesn't answer any of the moral questions it talks about, such as what is society or crime, etc., yet Yozo seemed to find a way to define these questions in his own way, and he remained conscious of the suffering he caused to himself, yet he somewhere blamed his father too, not directly. It's something meant for us to understand on our own. Also, one thing that angered me was his outlook on women, but yet I realised his point: in 1930, Japan, patriarchy was in its pick, but yozo apathay towards them, I guess, came from his own unavailable emotions; he felt more alienated from women, who are said to be more emotional than men in general.Well, I wouldn't say this book made me emotional and all, but I like this book in many ways. It asks many questions that I liked, and I relate to Yozo's thoughts or actions to some extent. If one asks me what I learned from here, I am not really sure exactly what I learned. As I mentioned before, I don't think Dazai focused on teaching his readers, but rather he wanted to share his thoughts and experiences, so I guess even without knowing him, I got to connect with him on some level, and that's what I learned.

It's very thrilled and suspenseful. I wasn't able to predict the ending.. It's astonishing how well the plot twisted fit and made me feel like obviously it's make sense.. I have read many thriller books and in some of them had unpredictable plot twists but in here it fitted so perfectly and brilliantly.

It's started with a protagonist K and he said this story is about Sumire , at first he seemed like a 3rd character but then as the story goes , I find it tough to decide who is the main character here K or Sumire or 'our life '. This story includes unrequited love , love triangle . But it's not actually a romantic story . It's a story about us and how we all sometimes start to chase our dreams but then suddenly start to think 'Am I really on the right path' and we take a step back and start to think , think about everything at the same time nothing in particular . I know even my review is not making any sense but if you start to read you will probably start to understand what I am saying . It's a open ended story and you will be left with many more questions and confusion , but every single details are covered without any plotholes . Specially , the name of this story . And so the open end actually is best ending you could have cause I don't think any happy or sad ending would give you the feeling.

As you know , it's a Japanese LGBTQ story, so basically it's about a student who is in love with his papa(so called) . It's sound a little inappropriate but the story is so emotional . And also it shows the boy's struggle with his feelings for his father who is actor and hero of everyone. There are few funny moments and also sexual content but overall the story is so emotional. And also there are some plot twist but I am not gonna spoil it.