I feel this. it's like you don't understand, but your mind does. you could live an exciting life, but by the end, you haven't lived a single day. Especially the last soundtrack to the album, R1. Hit me hard at its last minute. the music had entirely cut off. I think that's supposed to represent dementia's victory, the ill's defeat. Dementia has erased you, everything about you. everything that is you. Now all that remains is a shell of what you used to be. A body with life, yet at the same time, a body that hasn't any life anymore.