I'm currently on ep 4 and honestly I find this drama cringe worthy maybe bc I am not in their shoes or I don't understand stuff bc I'm on the younger side. The desperation is very overbearing and keeps flooding you all the time. I've noticed it most of the k-dramas I watched till date and maybe I don't know the Korean culture as much I know about the Japanese culture but the fact of hiding something that is obviously weighing you down and not being honest about it to others really turns me off from what I'm watching. As mentioned im not able to understand in entirety what the character is going through but the desperation really turns me off. If placed in a similar situation i would rather adopt than putting myself through all this torture, it speaks volumes of how bad of a parent i would have been.