I love the show about the woman and her daughter who were in a religious cult. She kept saying," if I stop believing that my minister was Jesus, I will go to Hell."
There is no way this woman is going to go to Hell. The woman is and has been living in Hell. It's okay if you have stop believing in Jesus because of this Jesus is an excellent Shepard. He will come find you.
I know about Hell because I 've lived in it myself.. My Dad told me I was going to Hell.
God is more unconditionally loving than people give Him credit. He is not Satan. If you have to take a break from believing in God. Do it!