Courtney Rutland

This is my first book to read of CoHo. I started late in the middle of the night, read until 3am and decided to finally get some sleep. Honestly I wasn’t tired at all, I kept wondering about the book, about Jeremy, Lowen, crew, verity… I contemplated picking it back up and finishing it out but I didn’t.. this morning though I finished it off. When I set the book down I was completely speechless. I had no idea how I wanted to really review this book. One thing I did know for sure, it deserved more that 5⭐️’s. Honestly this book made me feel so many emotions, from anger, pain, emptiness, happiness, and hurt. I felt every characters emotion as if I were in the book myself living the lives of one of them. This book is twisted.. now matter how twisted it got, it kept my interest and that is what I feel reading is all about. This book genuinely makes you wonder what can really go through someone else mind. I know at some point in everyone’s life, they’ve felt some kinda darkness that they felt might take them over one day. If I’m being honest I know I have, just in a different form, not in the form of hurting the ones I love like my children or husband. The general darkness where you feel or think the things you’d do or you could potentially do if someone hurt your children or your family. Some people truly do have those thoughts tho that were in this book in the autobiography, it’s sad, but it’s true, it angers me to believe that people do really feel that ways towards things or people like that but in all honesty some people do have that darkness in them. I can’t even begin to imagine the emotional stress this book put on coho, I know how my emotions felt and I’m sure hers felt 10xs worse than mine, but she did an amazing job at capturing and illustrating what could potentially be in the minds of a true physiologically disturbed individual.