charmaine mauritz

This is the quickest I have read a book. I spread it over a couple of hours over 4 days, only because I didn't want to stop reading. This story is personal to me. I come from an alcoholic abusive childhood home, I was also the child that always asked my mom to get out of the marriage and I never understood why she didn't. Then I fell in love with my first love, my first everything...who turned out to be physically emotionally abusive. It took me much longer than Lily to say "It stops here, it ends with us." But, the best decision of my life, when I ended it. I thought if I loved a broken person enough, that I could actually be someone that repairs him. Over many years I learnt some of where his anger came from. But the problem with that is that, I ended up more broken that I could ever have imagined. Fortunately I had and Alyssa and still have. My support was from people I never expected. The saddest part though is, the feeling and realization that I never had an Atlas. Never had someone who stood up for me and told me I deserve a better life. I depended on my Faith in God to "keep swimming"