sumi

Love how this book writes the feelings that Caden has. I have struggled with similar complications for a lot of my life, the worst time was the summer of '22 where I had a manic episode which initially rid of my paranoia but eventually made it a whole lot worse. Even though Caden has schizophrenia, the way he thinks was quite similar to me when I was in psychosis (although I can barely remember anything from that time). I felt exactly as how he was written as, I thought people were trying to get me. I thought my mom was a witch and my mind felt as if it were everywhere at once. I had strange daydreams and delusions and people did think I was on something although I wasn't. I had paranoia since I was around ten but what happened that summer had never happened for an extended period like that before. They still haven't figured out exactly what caused it so I'm actually still really worried that it will happen again but this book did bring me comfort in a sense. I really try not to think about what had happened to me because I am still so confused about it, I was hospitalized but I can barely remember. It was weird and fuzzy, a result of derealization (I think). This book kind of allows me to think about it all because I can really relate. I actually had been thinking about what had happened to me for a bit before this book, which I found thinking it was a book about the literal Challenger Deep trench, but I am glad I found it. Perhaps it can help me figure out things about the events I had went through. Overall, great book.