This is a disgusting overglazed book which should have never been translated or published. It is NOT "heavenly" it is an empty book with no plot and random triggering add ins. Him randomly jerking off added NOTHING to the plot, most unnecessary thing ever; why on earth would i want to read about a 14 year old jerking off to the thought of his other 14 year old friend... I guess it's "deep" but it just shares the basic points of nihilism it doesn't dive deep at all, it's about as deep as a pond, like the whole "life has no meaning" thing has been so overused it isn't new or exciting anymore. Maybe this was more of a hit in 2009 but it definitely isn't now. Maybe I'm not the target audience but I struggle to find why anyone would even chose to read this utter trash.