I miss my federal Marshall, air Marshall, and CIA friends that were real and there for me. There in heaven now but still with me. Not o t.v. but in real life. They used to help me put with advise and alot of other really good training in the mind. There not all bad. It's just the training they have to go thru that messes there minds up, bodies in the long run, and more. Same with me. Makes us smarter but the smarter you are sometimes the more you suffer because you know what's going on. Being to smart sometimes messes up your mind when you can't do anything about whats going on because you want to stop bad things from happening and money wise you don't have enough money to get everyone and stop them before doing something wrong or you cannot correct them in time before they mess up and make a mistake or something you knowwhat I mean . I know what's going on just can't do anything without money you know